Injustice, prejudice & bias are the words that shrouded my mind in this particular day. I was shooting Nerf gun towards my pillow and accidentally hit my brother's leg. He shot back intentionally and "accidentally" hit my sensitive area. He so call felt sorry and i knew that was fucked up shit.
I am very surprised that my mum did not reprimand my brother and instead saying that this is what i deserved for playing. I was fucking shocked when i heard this shit. I respond to my stupid brother with profanities and she scolded me.
I am starting to think that my parents are being bias towards me and may be seeking retribution of past issues during my adolescent years. I remembered vividly how my mum caned me very fiercely when i did something wrong. She did not do that to my brothers when they grew up. They are really "Kuai Lan" sometimes and she just scolded them. I also remembered how my dad hit me in the face when i was primary 2 when i refused to go to school. It hurt me really badly(physically & mentally) and i can still remember the situation back then.
What the hell is happening in my familia? I am thinking that whatever things i do will NEVER be appreciated. I am fine with the fact that i did not receive a thank you but at least show some gratefulness.
I bought food and things for Mum during her birthday to show my love and fillial piety. Did my brothers even say "Happy Birthday" to her. Hell No. I bought things for my Dad during his birthday and food occasionally to show my love too. Did my brothers do that? FUCK NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why am i always to be blamed for things happening? I hate the fact that my parents and siblings treat me as a punching bag and show their anger towards when their mood is bad. I HAVE bad moods too!!!!!!!!
I gritted my teeth fucking tightly when mum scolded me today and i suppressed my anger accumulated throughtout my life and waiting for the beast to be released. Don't blame me if i turn into a nasty son of a bitch!!!!!!
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